saya.budak.basic

oh, da masok tahon 2010..just realized that i got a blog, this blog..my first entry in 2010 n nw it is march..wow!aku rajen mnulis and its proven..even bulan 3 da, butter late than never kan?well, this sem is killing me..the same lec for two subjects, n diz lec who is a master holder mnjadi seorang yg judgemental..poor u lady, poor u miss, shame of your perspective, shame of your low-thinking thought..by insulting my hair, my image, it didnt reflect your image as a master holder..is it being rebellious with this hairstyle??open up you eyes lady, but i dont blame you, i blame our generation gap, specifically i blame ur generation..(pergh, over gilak!)haha..take a look at yours first, then come back n fuck up my image..but its ok, this lady has right to say anything, like i give a damn bout it..so many people i've annoyed, and this lady is one of them, she is worth hating..this sem is the last sem kt s alam n i'm gonna miss this place, arghh, tergwang plak..dlm hati ada taman kot..i hope i can survive this sem, those subjects keep haunting me, rugi wo jd part 6..n this sem will be the last sem for me n my hair..we are together for a long time n next sem, they will be gone, forever..by not forgetting you my hair, i came up with a thought so that those judgmental people will stop insulting you, dear..it sounds like this "Hairstyle does not reflect the act of rebellious, so stop being judgmental with your fuckin' thought"(Asyraf, 2010)..yeah, i knew its not the right thing to write up in this first entry..sorry people, but let me tell u a fact, no, not a fact, a theory, Youngsters suppose to make mistakes, so they can learn from them!u can grab it, think about it, and you will find this statement is unarguable!people, you are allowed to make mistakes!!so do i!!(budget muda lg..)..ciaw baybeh!

sajak.buat.yate

poem ni adalah salah satu journal creative writing aku..wrote this poem when i feel betrayed :

noone here likes you!
you can runaway and get the clue!
enjoy your selfishness!
or whatever that you do!
i dont know why!
i dont like what's on your mind!
but i love to split them wide!
i cant pretend to respect you!
cant you understand?
i'd rather doing some other stupid things!
than shake your hand and wish you well!
go ahead, do your thing!
hope you understand this thing!
i hate betrayer like you!
so, thank you!

itu.bukan.aku

di sebalik asg yg bersepah-sepah yg harus disubmit, aku blur, otak aku blank, tubuh sudah lesu ibarat menunggu hujan d musim kering dahulu.bila smua probs ni menggunung dlm otakku yg ber IQ tinggi ni, i just let it go.biarla bnyk2 tu, nt2 siap la tu.inila cara yg slalu aku buat utk menghadapi probs asg2 itu.asg hanya mainan lec utk membebankan kamu, tp bukan utk aku.aku xkan kalah dlm permainan minda sebegitu.part 5 menyedarkan aku yg x lm lg diriku ini bakal mnjadi seorang cekgu or lebih glamour dikenali sbg sir. aku xley blah, xley imagine rmbutku pendek, bertali leher, berkasut kulit, berbaju tuck in.damn!i cant be that man!i cant be that person for my whole life, tp apa yg terdaya lg, kaki sudah melangkah ke alam ini, micro teaching menjadi mainan disini, lakonan dlm clas bakal menjadi realiti tidak lama lagi, rambot ini harus dikorbankan jua. jika diberi pilihan, lebih rela aku megorbankan smua levis yg aku ada dr rmbot ini. tp x mngapa, yg aku notice, pabila bergelar sir, haruslah aku berdiri stiap pagi di dalam clas dan membebel kt bebudak, n mungkin menyentap breakfast stelah loceng berbunyi..i cant imagine that situation!hell no!bila umor semakin meningkat, bila part semakin tinggi, maka, smakin dkt la aku bakal mentransform menjadi lelaki yg bertali leher itu.aku x menyesal, bukan juga redha dgn keadaan ini, dan tidak sedih sama skali.aku rasa ini semua jenaka hidup, hidup mau tertawa melihat telatahku nanti.postive thinker baybeh!

aku.mencari.konklusi

td aku baru dpt full album hujan, mencari konklusi.pergh, mantap!anak2 malaysia sudah pndai mengproducekan lagu2 hebat seperti ini. kpd yg mengenali the strokes, ini la influence ny kpd band anak2 malaysia ni.aku salute hujan!terbaek. lirik lagu2 band ni mmg laen dr yg laen. bahasa simple tp dlm maksod ny. fevret lirik aku dlm mencari konklusi "belum tersimpul mati, ikatan itu ku bukak sendiri", ada phm maksod ny? tp kdg2 aku musykil knapa ad pihak2 yg ntah berpihak kpd siapa suka menghentam kugiran malaysia ini. knp nk sekat bakat anak2 malaysia ni?knp mau lanyak abis2 abisan kt magazine @ paper?kalau golongan sprti ni x buat anjakan paradigma ni, rakyat malaysia mesti lyn rock2 kapak ntah pape ny lagu.lagu jiwang tgkp cintan yg mleleh2. lagu dangdut amalina @ leina hangat yg budget hot smbil mnari2 cmtu.aiyak, manusia mmg begitu. mungkin noh (frontman) yg bnyk influence aku ny imej, AG (lead guitar) yg memberi inspirasi kpd ku untuk blajar gitar. hujan bnyk berjasa kpd diriku ini. maybe ada yg ckp band ni srabai, rmbut mcm helmet, dress up cam palat (tp topman/zara gak bai, kasot onitsuka tiger gak bro)n bla bla bla bla. tp jgn lupa band ni la membuka mata anak2 muda malaysia untuk teros berkarya dlm muzik tanah air. band ini la yg membukak pintu kpd band2 laen untuk masuk ke dunia mainstream itu. credit shud be given to dimas sbgai org kuat dlm penubuhan band ini, beliau maen bass dlu, tp now da tka angin maen keyboard. dgn keyboard ini music arrangement lg sedap menusuk ke halwa telinga. noh pula ngn suara mcm aku sket2, sambil keep rockin' ngn rambot helmet ny (guna jari pon bley). now lagu romantik da officially become ma new ringtone. ini lagu2 pilihan yg aku rs terbaek dlm album ni : mencari konklusi, obsesi, n sangkar besi di hatiku.aku bukan mau promote, tp mau habaq ini band malaysia yg terbaek pernah ditubuhkan!keep on rockin' baybeh!feed ur lullaby with H.U.J.A.N!marila menikmati hujan yg turun ke malaysia ini...

to.yate.with.love

sejak2 ni yate atau lebih dikenali sbg mdm hayate petthigrew telah mnjadi satu fenomena d kalangan bdk2 part 5.why?beliau seorang creative writing lec.at 1st, i salute her, the way she teach, the way she threw out opinion.pergh, steady la mdm!but maybe because its not just her, maybe because of the subject.subject yg x kna baca buku.cool baybeh!but now when she made shit out of us, aku da start realize different flow, different thought from others.some said : "agak2 r nk keja tmpat laen pon, keja student burn begitu sahaja".so,we have to redo all those stuff again.n ini pula berkata "damn2!tension aku ngn yate ni!nak kaya pon, agak2 r, xkan keja students pon mau biat harta?dasar gilak dwet!"
statement di atas mungkin merujuk kpd pelajar2 yg rajin gilak wat smua task given.frankly speaking, i dont mind at all.i dont give a damn for you yate.bia la yate mau meneruskan kehidupan beliau.she has the options and she chose one.students keep playing with emotional, thats the biggest weakness. you cant let the emotion make the decision.you cant speak out from the emotion.it shouldnt be that way.it affects your judgement.me?aku x penah dan mengsubmit smua task ni pon. ada la submit, tp part reflection n poem2 tu onleyy.fairy tale?wtf?suda 21years idop but still must write up a fairy tale?c'mon la wey..disebabkan ini kot, aku still x rasa nak mara kt yate.she's the 1st lec yg baca poem aku.i'll remember that.forever!
you can see in different views, but i know one thing : i believe this view, i choose this view, i say things from my view.god bless you yate!

volley oh volley

aku skip clas research lagi ptg td.but credit should be given to tazah cuz tlg sign attendance aku.again..i did that just for the sake of volleyball.volley ni x la popular sgt kt cni but aku suka maen volley.the situation is, at fac edu, bila ada tournament baru smua nk tron maen, time2 skunk, agak kekurangan player itu.aku wonder kt mana hilang semangat nk bwk balek emas for edu the next saf?dulu time saf, ramai yg maen, tp sekarang, agak mengecewakan.dlm otak aku, semangat terhadap vball x penah hilang.seriously, i can remember every single moment at that tournament.it sticks on my mind.maybe ni la yg buat aku semangat maen.saf this year, our team edu juz got silver medal.kami kalah dgn bdk2 sport rec and i always regret for that game, the game that we did not play our style, our strategy, our game.this disappointment will never fade away because i have no chance to revenge, to beat them back. we could play better, we could give them fight, we could make edu proud, we could prove to everyone that cekgu pon hebat bersukan but we blew it.WE BLEW IT AWAY in front of the edu's supporters.next sem, aku da kna balek maktab, saf will be held in next two sems. aku x contribute anything for edu yet.still.that makes me feel sucks.aku da lama jatoh chenta dgn volley.volley is in my blood (sorry, ayat ni mmg poyo..)

put.the.past.away.

sum said "bro, xkan nk jd cekgu rmbut cenggini?".aku diam.tenang seketika.soalan yg selalu didengari.get used to it.yes, we cant turn off the sound.orang2 kita pndai bermadah.orang2 kita pndai mengkritik.mereka tidak tahu apa itu self satisfaction, mereka tidak tahu yg at last i'll end up being someone that i dont want, n ill be that someone for my whole life!tahniah!disini aku mau jd diri aku, even just for a while.even just for a few sems here.gosh, aku suka uitm ini.i wish i could turn back time, chose the right profession pas spm dulu. bak dlm micro teaching aku, ambition, sarcastically i have none before.teacher?its not me, i wasnt born for being in this group.messy hair sets my soul alight.ini adalah aku, aku mau bebas, aku benci dikongkong dgn those laws. they created the law to tie you up, and you can let the law eat you alive, not me!aku suka rmbut ni, ari2 x perlu susah2 pakai gel, x perlu sikat cam mat bunga tp agak gementar pabila ke fac d pagi hari!surat saman sem ni bru 1, rekod2, last sem aku ada 6 baybeh! =)